i don't even know if you're going to read this but i honestly hope you are slowely getting better. feeling lost is the worst feeling you can have and seeing your friends just doing everything and being happy is great but it sucks at the same time. going through that same shit and it is hard to bite through to be honest. i would love to give a solution but the only thing i can say if you ever want to talk don't be afraid to reach out.
life sucks and is beautiful at the same time and unfortunally this is what comes along although it would be great just to rip it out sometimes and to feel just happy but that's impossible. anyway i hope you're feeling better soon. and awesome job with the animation. you're doing awesome as always.