Hey guy's,

So it has been two weeks since i posted anything or atleast posted anything. right now i wanted to all let you know how i am doing and that is not great. i started classes what has been going great. like every person is awesome or atleast the people i have met are really nice but it has been tiring. like really tiring. i like hanging around with them and all and there not bad people at all but with everything that has been going on with me it has been exhausting. 

i try to stay positive especially because that is the only thing i can do but some things have been going on that have been rough. even though that i still try to help people out but it has been stopping me from talking to some friends of mine as well as reacting on others and i am sorry for that. for me there has been going on some personal stuff and that has taken a tole on me. like not a small tole but a big one luckly i got some people around me who can keep me up and help out but still. i have been more into myself and look very positive during classes what honestly is a miricle on it's own because i don't feel that way. 

in my personal life there has been things going back and forth to get something inportant done so i can get further but it has been hard. i and someone i care about alot lash out sometimes to each other because he is in the situation as well. it gets us both stressed out even if we don't show it. (also right now my throwt hurts. i don't know why but stiill. hope that goes away soon as well) anyway i wanted you all to know that i have been okay for the most part. if i don't react to you i am terribily sorry but just a day takes off alot of energy that i can't really just get back. it's a huge weight on my shoulders and it takes some time and rest to really come back fully. of course i will but right now it's a bit hard. 

if i answer you late you kinda know why now. i never intend to hurt you or others but me not reacting could cause that and that isn't good. i think i see every message it's just hard to react with so much going on the whole time. i am sorry if i made someone worry as well. i'll try to get through this even though it is rough. anyway that was my little update.

i hope everyone is doing okay (and better than me :p ) but yah try to stay 
positive and i will try to be there soon again. 
anyway have a wonderfull day. 

~N

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